Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday

Day 324 – Much Too Much

I haven’t done one of Berry’s Monday Memes in a while because… well, because I get lazy. 🙂 But the meme today was to do a black and white photo, and I couldn’t pass that up.

Day 324 - Much Too Much

I love black and white photos. Black and white movies, too, actually. But I don’t take a lot of black and white photos in SL because people like to see the colors of things, especially in fashion blogging. I could do it more here in this blog, but I’m also lazy and sometimes it can be harder to make a B&W photo look decent. Unless you’re just hitting the B&W photoshop option and leaving it alone. Then it’s a piece of cake!

Of course, I didn’t do that, and maybe I should have. I think I might have gone too far.

I really need a new monitor. Well, actually, I NEED a whole new computer. But my monitor seems to make things darker to me than what they actually are. So for a lot of photos, I’ll do them and then when I look at them on my phone or Kindle, it’s like….oh. Hey, brightness. LOL!

I’m having a Doritos craving, so I think it’s off to the store for me!

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday, don't cry over my opinion

Day 294 – Introspection

I haven’t done one of Berry’s memes in a while, and since it’s late and late is when I get more introspective, it seemed like a good time to do one. 🙂

Day 294 - Introspection

1. Regardless of your current number, how old do you actually feel? I’m 36, but I honestly feel like I’m still in my 20s. Sometimes even younger. It really depends on the day and what’s going on. I have flashes of feeling my age – like when I need to do something for my parents or when I wake up in the mornings and my fingers are stiff, the beginnings of arthritis. But for the most part, I feel young. Very very young. It’s nice, though. For a long time, I raced to be older. I thought there was some magic to be older, and that isn’t true. The magic is in keeping your sense of humor, your sense of wonderment, no matter your age.

2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? Oh, definitely never trying is worse! Failures teach you what to do next, or what not to do again. It’s why I don’t agree with the current trend of “Everyone is special, everyone gets a trophy just for showing up” that I see some of my friends’ kids going through in school. No. Not everyone gets a trophy. You EARN trophies by being good enough to get one. If you don’t get one, that means you either did something wrong, or you just weren’t as good as someone else. And it’s okay! You learn from that and you work harder and when you do get that trophy, it means something.

3. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? That’s kind of hard to say. I don’t really regret much that I’ve done that has gotten me to this point in my life. But I don’t know…if you told me that I’d die at 40, which is only in 4 more years, I’d probably…eat more cake without guilt, make sure I laugh even more than I do now [which seems impossible because I smile and laugh so much these days], travel to meet many of my friends, and spend as much time as possible with those who love me.

4. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? I can be a bit of a perfectionist with some things, and it tends to overwhelm me because I want it done RIGHT. And I want it done right the first time, which contradicts #2 in so many ways. 🙂 But I also want to do the right things. I fail at that sometimes, but, again, it teaches me what not to do in the future and that’s worth it. I didn’t really answer this question very well, did I?

5. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? Joyful simpleton, all the way! 🙂 I worry so much, even behind all the happiness and laughter. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder over 15 years ago, and it gets worse each year as different things change. It’s probably why I sleep so badly – my thoughts race all night! Being a joyful simpleton sounds like a nice change of pace for a while.

6. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? In some ways, yes. I love my friends. I will listen to them complain about the same things for a year if that’s what it takes. But do I reach out to them often? No, not really. I don’t want to be a bother, which if I had a friend like me, I’d think that my silence meant that I was upset or busy or not willing to talk. And it’s not true. I’m just extremely bad at starting a conversation about nothing with most people. I feel like I have to be entertaining and it’s hard for me to do that. So would I want me as a friend? Yeah. But it would be a slow growing friendship because I’m a bad conversationalist and need someone to chatter until I’m comfortable.

7. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now? Well, 5 years ago in November, my dad was sick and my mom was nuts. He’s not actually sick now [although my mom is still kinda nuts] but I see how frail he is. So did the sickness matter then? Yes. Does it matter now? Not that particular bout of the flu. And in between my worrying about my parents like crazy, I had some SL stuff going on which REALLY doesn’t matter now in the least bit. LOL!

8. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? Wow. Umm… I really can’t think of a time. And it’s not that I’m not happy and excited about things daily. It’s just that when I felt the most passionate and alive, I was performing. And I don’t really perform now, unless you count SL DJing, which is a pale substitute for the rush of taking the field in front of hundreds or standing in a room alone with 3 judges, but still makes me really happy when I do it. I don’t really get to do a lot of things these days. My life doesn’t allow for me to travel or anything. When I had a personal trainer at the gym, I will say I felt really amazing after completing a weight lifting session and I was quite passionate about that for a while. It’s harder for me without a trainer and I have some issues now that don’t allow me to do what I was doing before, but hopefully one day I can do it again.

9. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? I don’t currently have a job. 🙂 But if I won a million dollars, I’d pay for my parents’ house to be renovated and then if there was any money left over, I’d buy myself a good computer since I really really need one.

10. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? I’d gather my parents, my boyfriend, and my bestie and her family together in a room and we’d eat lots of delicious food and tell stories and laugh and just hold each other until the end.

11. What do you feel is the difference between being alive and truly living? Being alive is just existing. You don’t contribute anything to anyone. Truly living means you are leaving your mark on peoples’ lives. You help them. You receive love. You laugh and smile and appreciate the teeny tiny things in life, like the scent of your hand soap or the blue of the autumn sky. You don’t have to have big grand gestures. You don’t have to skydive and collect a million friends. You are truly living when you appreciate life.

12. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Because we won’t get our trophy! LOL!

13. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? I think I’d say more of what I think. I talk on plurk, I talk on my blog, but there is quite a lot that I hold back from saying. We are judged by our words. But then again, even if I weren’t judged, I still might not say things because I don’t believe that people need to know your every opinion, especially if it is needlessly hurtful. So I think…I’d be a dancer. I’d just dance like crazy.

14. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Take care of your body. It’s the only one you’ll ever get and you’re going to be in it for a long time.

Whew. This was a LONG one! 10 points to you if you actually read everything!! ♥

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday, home

Day 255 – 42 Groups and a gumball

Last night I spent time setting up a kid’s room. I don’t know why. LOL It’s just fun to do.

Btw, Flickr STILL hasn’t re-reviewed my photostream so I’m still on my new one. If you could add me, and add me to any groups you think I’d be interested in, I’d appreciate it. I miss all of my Flickr groups so much. 😦

Day 256 - 42 Groups and a gumball

It’s Monday, so you know it’s time for a meme from Berry! Today she’s asking us about groups.

Have you reached the 42 group limit?

Right now I’m only in 36 groups, which surprises me. I’m usually hovering around 40, but I’ve left a few event groups lately because the events are over.

Do you do a lot of group hopping to keep up with all the groups you want to stay a part of?

Not really, but mostly because the majority of my groups are blogger groups and they’re invite only. I am in a few store groups, but the ones I stay in are the ones that are mostly pay groups now and I don’t want to leave. [More on that in a minute.] The other groups are land groups that I need to stay in.

What makes you want to join a group?

Well, with the blogger groups, that’s easy. I stay in them for review copies and event information, and sometimes to chat with other bloggers. If a store group wants me, they need to pony up with some incentives. Unfortunately, a lot of them don’t any more and that’s kind of sad. I used to join a lot of store groups when I was new, even if I didn’t really know the store, because of a gift they were giving. Some of the stores I still frequent today are because of that initial gift. I am in one social group [my own] but we’re not as social as we used to be because some of my friends are no longer in SL often, and group chat for a while was so spotty, it was impossible for us to chat any way so people moved on. I’m still friends with most of them on plurk, so I guess it doesn’t matter really.

A lot of store VIP groups have a group fee which you have to pay to join. How do you feel about paying group fees?

I hate – HATE – group fees. Not because I’m cheap. Trust me, if you have a wonderful group with lots of incentives to join, I will happily pay the fee. But most of them do not. Yes, a discount on your items is nice, but it needs to be instant if I’m in your group, not one of those store credit things. Those are awesome and I like them, but not if it’s group based. Plus, what’s with the $1k and up group fees??? They say “Oh, our gifts are worth it.” But seriously? I don’t find that’s the case 99% of the time. One recolor of an item every 3 or 4 months is not worth someone ponying up $1000L or more. I also tend to feel kind of trapped in a pay group. Like, okay, I paid the fee – now I can’t leave because I don’t want to pay again. Especially if it’s a group that rarely does any kind of gifts or discounts. A designer might think they are worth the price, but we have limited group space. Make it worth our while to be in your group. Also, if you don’t have a current group gift out, consider having free open enrollment once in a while just to get more people in your group. The more people in it, the more people remember to come shop you when you do a new release notice, you know?

Name a few groups that you are a part of that you feel everyone should look into joining and share your reasons behind that.

The Gos Boutique group is a good one, if a little chatty, because of the 10% discount on items and sometimes Gos has an awesome group gift. The price is also only $50L to join regularly, and $500L if there’s a group gift out. You get 10% back on your purchases if you’re in the group, so you do make the fee back quickly if you shop often. The Stellar group is also great because Lexi does at least one monthly gift, sometimes more. It’s a $250L joining fee but you do make that up in gifts. The SLink group is chatty and helpful, even about things that are not SLink related. If you don’t like a lot of group chat, it’s probably not for you, but you also receive a discount on items in the store, and it’s only a $10L joining fee.

The rest of my groups are land and blogger and event based, so I can’t really recommend them because you can’t join them. LOL

Man. I need to be in more social groups.

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday, Flat Rodvik

Day 245 – Find Your Own Way Home, Flat Rodvik!!

I was so excited to do the new Flat Rodvik meme from Berry! I saw it last night before I went to bed and happily planned my afternoon with the guy.

Things didn’t turn out how I expected.

I thought we’d start our afternoon together with some ice cream! Who doesn’t like ice cream, am I right? I couldn’t decide what flavor, so we got 3 scoops of fun! At least, I got 3 scoops of fun. When I offered some to Rodvik, he was kind of disinterested in it.

Day 245 - Find your own way home, Flat Rodvik!!

Well, no biggie. I guess he’s lactose intolerant and didn’t want to spoil the rest of our day with running to the bathroom. That was very polite of him, now that I think about it!

We stuck around my vacation home because I thought that he’d probably enjoy just having fun there and away from crowds. After all, when you’re a Linden – especially the top Linden! – you’re probably happy to not be slammed with IMs from crazy people. I thought he’d enjoy a ride on my new whirly thing!


Okay. First of all, he didn’t even OFFER to push it, so I had to do all the pushing. Which, that’s FINE… I’m sure it’s hard to push in his robe and sandals. That’s fine. But then he just stood basically in the middle. That’s hardly any fun! Maybe he has issues with being dizzy? Some people do.

Things really started going south when I challenged him to a twerking contest and he wouldn’t even TRY. Who wouldn’t want to twerk with me?!

Twerkin For Rodvik!

By this time, I was annoyed. He didn’t want ice cream, he didn’t want to spin, he didn’t want to twerk. What was the deal?? Was he tired? Bored of me? Doesn’t like blondes? Hungry??? Finally I offered him some delicious rice bunnies from my bento box and he was totally not into it!!

No Bento Either?!

You know what, Flat Rodvik? YOU KNOW WHAT? There are lots of people who would love to play with me and spin with me and twerk with me and eat my rice bunnies!! TONS OF PEOPLE.

Whatev. You can find your own way home. I’m going inside for a nap.

See Ya!!

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday, thinking

Day 243 – The Bucket List

So Miss Berry had a SL Bucket List meme for this week. And I wasn’t going to do it because I kept thinking, “What else do I really want to do in SL? I’ve done lots of things!”

But many many years ago when I used to go to leadership training camps, one day the instructor told us to reach up as high we possibly could. So we did. Then he said to reach higher. And we did. He said that if we had REALLY reached as high as we could the first time, there was no way we could have reached higher, therefore no matter what we did, we could always figure out a way to do even more if we really wanted. That always stuck with me. So while thinking about this meme, I realized there is more that I want out of my SLife.

Day 243 - The Bucket List

The Bucket List:

1. Get better at Photoshopping my pictures. There are so many wonderful graphic artists in SL and when I see their pics on Flickr, I always think, “Why can’t I do something that amazing?!” The truth is, I could, if I put the time into learning how to do it.

2. Make something in mesh and have it not look crazy. I have Blender. I have several tutorials. I have a brain. Granted, it’s not a very techy type of brain, but it’s a brain. If some people I know could learn how to do it, I know I could, too.

3. Finally get a family in SL. I know I have my husband and all, but I feel like we need more people to be close with. I want sisters, brothers, the whole nine yards. I’m still flip-floppin’ on the whole adoption thing, but I think that’s because my RL is a little stressy right now and I tend to only think about adoption when I have more time to devote to SL.

4. Help out with an event. I don’t want to RUN a whole event, but I’d like to help out with one as more than just a blogger. I got to kind of help a bit with The Shoe Expo back in 2010, which was really fun because that was like, MY event, but I didn’t do a whole lot for it besides blog towards the end.

5. Get into a couple of blogger groups for certain stores. NOT saying which ones!!! :-p But there are a couple of stores where I think I’d cry if I ever got invited to be an official blogger for them. Even better would be if they invited me without my having to apply. I just want them to see what I do and like it enough to want me!

6. Go to more than 5 parties in one night and actually have fun at them. My record for party hopping in SL right now is 3. So um, some of you need to have more parties so I can come make an appearance.

7. Do an AO-less run across more than 12 mainland sims. I don’t know why I want to do this. I just do. LOL

8. Go to a really good live show and not mute 75% of the audience for being gesturbating attention whores. Do I need to explain this?

9. Have more than 5 really gorgeous things named specifically after me. My friend Kellee made a ballet outfit years ago and named it for me. My friend Ewan named one of his latest creations for me. So I just need 3 more things!

10. Host and DJ a party so spectacular, people talk about it for a full year afterwards. I don’t think I need to explain this one either. I think I’ve had some pretty impressive parties, but I want to have the mother of all parties one day!

Ten things for now, but I’m sure I could come up with 10 more if I thought about it. There’s always more to do!

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday

Day 241 – Berry’s Intriguing Questions

It occurred to me lately that I’ve been having fun learning new Photoshop things that all of my pics are looking very heavily Photoshopped. So here’s just a raw snap of me in SL, no liquifying, no filters, no color balance, no curves, no blurring. Just me in my normal windlight.

Day 241 - Berry's Intriguing Questions

Berry has another meme for us – Intriguing questions! I can’t pass over the opportunity to talk about myself, so you know I’m all over this.

1. How do you deal with criticism?

I’m pretty good at hearing it if I feel it’s coming from a place of actually wanting to help me. Criticism for the sake of just being an asshole…well, mostly I ignore that. Or I spread nasty rumors, have stores shut down, etc.

I’m kidding about that, btw.

Spending a good 10 years of my life in competition settings, I got really used to criticism. You have to learn to listen to it, weed through the bad, and get to the good. It can truly make you a better person.

2. What’s the most infuriating thing other SL residents do?

Criticize me.

Hahahaha! Okay, kidding about that, too. [Don’t you love my blogposts when I’ve gotten very little sleep?]

I think what irritates me the most is the resistance to change that so many residents have. They’re so quick to think the worst about Linden Lab and Second Life, that any change, even if it IS for the better, throws them into a tailspin of crazy. I’ve been hanging out a little on the SL forums the past couple of days and the resistance to server side appearance/baking is hysterical to me because people are screaming that their SL is now broken beyond belief – despite the fact that they are either in a very old viewer OR not even on one of the sims where SSA/B has been implemented.

3. Which SL resident would you most like to have lunch with and why?

Aldwyn and Ulaa, of course! I’d love to spend even just an hour with them in real life just because I love them. But really, I’ve love to hang out with almost all of my SL friends at some point. I think it would be fun!

4. Who would you say is your “anti” role model? Someone who serves as a warning rather than an inspiration?



*laughing behind my hand*

Oh. Yeah. I don’t name and shame.

5. What was something you used to enjoy, but was ruined for you?

Blogging some events. I won’t say which, or why.

6. What’s something you want to do that you’d be embarrassed to tell other people about?

I actually would like a Zooby baby. I don’t know if I’d want to do the whole SL pregnancy thing, but I’d like a baby and to decorate a nursery and play with the baby and all that stuff.

7. What’s the oddest term of endearment you’ve ever used or that someone’s used for you?

Hmm… I can’t think of any. I call everyone sweetie or honey. Or booboo, BERRY.

8. Have you ever fallen in love with another SL resident?

Duh? LOL!

9. Describe a time/event in your slife that you’re nostalgic for.

I miss when Cen was in SL, when we were always at the Viper Pit, hanging out and throwing parties, but before she started really blogging. I feel like a lot of things changed when she started blogging and getting more known. It wasn’t her fault, but back when we were blogging in 2008, things were different because there were more of us who did personal SL blogs, not fashion blogs, and a lot of SL residents read our blogs. So then they’d IM or come by and she was very very open in her blog, and it led to some craziness. So I guess really from January to May 2008, that’s what I’m nostalgic for.

10. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

Pay my island for a month? *snickersnorts*

Mmmm… I don’t know. Maybe custom make something just for me, or take a great picture of me, or send me something I’ve said I wanted. I’m pretty easily pleased with gifts.

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday, digits, shapes

Day 233 – Berry’s Being Nosy Again!

Here we go again. Berry is SO NOSY. :-p We’ve done the “What’s Your Digits” meme before, but it’s seriously one of my favorites because it’s cool to see how we’ve changed over the years. I am forever tweaking bits of my shape, but mostly my face. I didn’t think I’d made any really significant changes to my body in the past year, but I guess I have because I had a couple of surprises this time!

Day 233 - Berry's Being Nosy Again!

The biggest surprise to me is that I HAVE gotten shorter since last year. 12cm shorter by what the avatar ruler tells me. 19 points shorter by the shape maker! I was at 45 on the shape slider last year. But I think I must have done that to stay around the same height even though my torso got longer. [Someone came up behind me while I was changing one day and asked “Why is your av’s torso so short?” I didn’t realize that it was, but I guess it was short enough for him to notice!]

This this round of digits is about proportions, Berry has some questions.

1. Do you try and keep your avatar’s body proportionate and similar to the “average” proportions pictured above? [Above meaning a proportions guide that she has on her blog.]

I like things to be fairly proportionate on myself. My avatar is a slimmer, more petite girl because that’s how I like her to be. That’s how she FEELS to me because if I were not battling a massive weight issue in my RL, I think my shape would be more similar to my avatar’s. Well, except for that my avatar has long legs and a bigger chest. But you know…other than THAT. LMAO I don’t think my avatar is EXACTLY proportionate, but to me she looks just about right.

2. What do you dislike the most about the SL avatar mesh?

I’m not fond of our legs. I think when you increase the fat on your legs, your knee fat and ankle fat should increase, too, and they don’t. Your thighs get fat, your calves get bigger, but your knees and ankles stay the same size and it just looks flippin’ CRAZY.

3. Does it bother you when you see other avatars that are not proportionate at all?

Ehhh…. not bother me in a huge way, but I prefer not to see it. I like my SLife to be beautiful, and someone who is 8 feet tall with 100 max slider boobs, T-Rex arms, a thigh gap you could drive an 18-wheeler through, and a baby head is not beautiful to me. But to be honest, unless their shape IS just that messed up, I don’t really notice anything wrong. I’m usually just looking at myself most of the time.

4. Even though this is a virtual world and people can be anything they want to be, do you feel when they are in human form, they should try to keep their proportions close to average?

It’s SL. Look how you want to look. Just be aware that how your avatar looks is how you’re presenting yourself to the virtual world and people might think something about it, or even not want to get to know you because you look crazypants, OR because you look proportionate and lovely and they think you’re a vain sell out. That happens, too.

Thanks for another fun meme, Berry!! ♥

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday

Day 230 – Just talking to talk.

I’m so behind on blogging. lol

I say it a lot to myself, but it’s true. I am honestly behind on blogging. I don’t really have an excuse except that I’m more active in RL lately, but I’m not running marathons and doing brain surgeries. [Although I am watching a lot of Grey’s Anatomy.] I gotta get out of this slump!!

Day 230 - Just talking to talk

Anyway, Miss Berry has a new meme for us today! I actually meant to do the movie poster one from last week, and I have the set and the poses and all that set up already, but I haven’t been on enough to grab anyone to come take a picture with me. I will do that eventually. But today we’ve got Weird Questions!

1. Which was the last sim you visited? (Other than your home)

Ummmm… I think it was… Oh heck, I can’t remember. LOL! Oh, it was Summerfest, so it was on the Floorplan sim.

2. Does your avatar look like the real you?


3. Do you wear underwear/panties underneath your clothing when out and about on the grid?

I do lately, actually! With mesh skirts, you never know if the alpha is going to make your lady garden disappear OR if it’s just going to be all out there on display. I err on the side of caution these days and just keep some underpants on.

4. If you won a million linden dollars, what would be the first thing you buy inworld?

The fatpack of the Cleo skin from Glam Affair. After that, I’d probably just pay for Bluebonnet for a few months or rent a little homestead that could just be for us to run around and decorate.

5. Have you ever bought something in SL and then realized afterwards that you had already owned it from before?

Oh god, yes. Lots of times!!

6. Have you ever done anything in Second Life that would be considered illegal in real life?

I’ve pushed people off of platforms which is PROBABLY frowned upon in RL. LOL

7. If you could go out on a date with any other avatar, who would it be?

Aldwyn, because we haven’t seen each other in world in like a week. I hate time zones and my need to be in bed early.

8. Who, in your opinion, was the greatest avatar to ever slive?

That’s a really hard question. I’ve known so many fantastic people in world. I’m honestly not sure I could pinpoint it to just one person.

9. What is the most embarrassing thing you’ve ever done inworld?

That’s a really hard question, too! Cen and I used to run around and do silly things that some people might consider embarrassing, but I never thought of it that way.

10. If your avatar had a mind of its own, what do you think it would say to you?

“Could you maybe dress me better? And could you PLEASE finish decorating our house?!”

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday, emosad, Strawberry

Day 221 – 5-7-5

I’m a day late with Berry’s latest meme, but mostly because I found this one harder to do! It’s very easy for me when she asks lots of questions because, as we all know, I love talking about myself. :-p Doing a haiku about my SLife is harder because I haven’t written poetry in a long time, and when I was heavily into it, all my poems were fantastically emo. But, I was 22 and had just lost my sister, so I’m not sure what I expected to write. I’d just go to the park and sit and cry and write emo sadpanda poems. But, I do like haikus, so I think I’ll do her meme, and then expand a bit on it.

Here I am again
Just standing here all alone
Staring at my shoes.

Day 221 - 5-7-5

I spend a lot of time in SL just staring at myself. Not because I’m vain or anything, but because I appreciate the work that people have done in making things like clothes and shoes and other avatar accessories. I think it’s easy for me to do this because I’m rarely with people.

Back on my first account, I had a rather large group of friends. In 2007 I was the manager of a small strip club [LOL, I know] that I’d started out as a dancer in back in late 2006. I met a ton of people through that place, and at almost any time in the day, there were people milling around the club. I could go there and eventually someone would join me. Even if no one was dancing or there wasn’t an event going on, there were usually people just there. It was an easy way of hanging out. Fast forward to 2008, and I had found myself another large group of friends, and another easy place to hang out at. I knew if I just went to the Viper Pit, eventually Cen or someone would stop in and we’d hang out and see where the day took us.

That all feels like a lifetime ago.

It’s different now. Most people that I talk to choose not to go to clubs because they’re annoyed by the gesture spam and by the fact that people rarely talk. Even when there is a place for hanging out [like we tried to put together], it’s rare anyone goes. I see some people hanging out with their families at the adoption places, but that’s a very specific group.

What I mostly see are a lot of people talking about how they stay on their platforms and never see anyone. I can’t believe that EVERYONE is just standing somewhere on a platform alone while they plurk.

I think that somewhere along the line, we’ve lost the ability to just hang out in Second Life. If it were just me, I’d have an excuse. I’m shy, I’m a little scared to get close to people again, and I feel like people are going to leave once they get to know me OR once I tell them how I really feel about something. [This is not just limited to SL, btw.] But I see others talking about it, too. They want to be social, they don’t know how.

It’s sad. I want to break free of it. I just am not quite sure how.

Hmm. It seems that my poetry still lands me back in that emo sadpanda place. Dammit, Berry! LOL!!

Posted in 365 blog project, Berry Meme Monday, Strawberry

Day 220 – My 3 Wishes

It’s time again for a Berry Meme Monday! I just love these. I really enjoy talking about stuff, but sometimes I just have NO idea what to talk about! This one is a fun topic: My 3 Second Life Wishes.

Day 220 - My 3 Wishes

1. I wish tier was lower. I know, I know. Everyone wishes this. But even though I’m very blessed to have an island, and I’m very very lucky to have the people I have living there, I still dream of having an island just for Aldwyn and me one day. I want to landscape an entire island just for us. I feel like more people would have islands if tier was lower and that could only lead to more beauty and fun in Second Life. We can dream!

2. I wish I had skills. I would LOVE to create in SL. I would make so much furniture and landscaping stuff and jewelry if I only had the skill! It’s not that I haven’t tried, believe me. But there are some people who pick up these things easily and some who do not, and I am a do not. :-p Plus, I have like no artistic talent at all, so doing textures and whatnot would be ridiculous and everything would look like a hot mess. I’d like photography skills, too. Or at least social skills!! I think that I am a decent enough DJ, but not social enough these days to be able to throw parties like I used to, and my RL schedule doesn’t allow me to work at clubs. I would just like to be able to do something!

3. I wish people I didn’t like would leave SL. Hahahahaahha…. sorry. Had to say it. Okay, let me cross this out.

3. I wish people loved SL in the way that I do. Despite the lag, and the viewer problems, and the bits of drama here and there, I adore this world. I hate when people say mean things about it. And if they DON’T like it or don’t want to be here, I wish they’d leave and just…go away. Don’t stick around talking about how they’re not in SL any more because of *insert whatever overdramatic issue here*. I see it on plurk sometimes. People are excited about something in SL and someone else has to pop their head in to say “I’M NOT EXCITED BECAUSE SL SUCKS AND I LEFT IT AND I’M NOT IN IT AND Y’ALL ARE STUPID BECAUSE YOU’RE EXCITED ABOUT SL STUFF.” No. Go away. Shoo. This world is big and beautiful and sure, it has its problems, but it’s Second Life. It’s ours. As with anything, it is what you make of it. If you expect problems, you get problems. So stop and get in there and enjoy what we have while we have it!