Posted in changes, love, new beginnings, new things, Uncategorized

Just Say Yes

I’m back!

I know what people really want me to talk about. What happened? Why did I mostly leave Second Life for a time? Why are people who were in my life no longer in my life? There are a lot of questions and I get that. But truthfully? It doesn’t really matter. People are going to believe whatever they want to believe, regardless of what I say. All that really matters now is how I move forward.

And I think that’s where this blog comes in.

At it’s very core, it’s always been about me, and how I keep moving on in Second Life. Long time readers know that I started out one way and kept moving forward through different relationships, different hobbies, different everything.

I want to go back to what this was in the beginning. Stories. Adventures. Being immersed in this SLife that I continue to live. And I really hope, to whoever still reads this, that you’ll enjoy it!

Because you know what?

Everything starts with YES.

Just Say Yes (Personal Blog)

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Posted in Aldwyn, love, milestones, Uncategorized

Six Years

So back in 2010, Aldwyn and I were just hanging out. A lot. Neither of us were looking for anything, we just simply enjoyed each other’s company. But then we decided, hey…why not try this? Why don’t we see what happens?

A year after that, he proposed. And a few months later, we were married. Then came the kids. And throughout everything, we’ve remained strong. ❤

Today is our 6 year anniversary. I can't believe he's put up with me for 6 years! Believe me, he's probably been tempted to go out for cigarettes and not come back more times than he'd ever say. *laughs* But we stay together, and every moment we get together is wonderful.

Six years. Who would have guessed?

Six Years

Posted in Aldwyn, love, valentine's day

I’m surrounded by your embrace

It’s late and my pixel feet are tired from all of the dancing tonight, but I had to do a special Valentine post for my special Valentine. [Of course, I don’t think he actually reads my blog!] I was actually going to have this dedicated to him at the party tonight with the song but that didn’t happen, so I get to write it here. 🙂

My love,

It’s been almost 6 years since we first met and almost 5 since you decided that I was worth spending more time with. We’ve never had a fight, you’ve never used harsh words against me, and you’ve been more patient with me than anyone ever has been. I’ve never had to worry about anything with you and that is a gift that sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve. You know my secrets and my past and you have never judged me. You have been my rock for almost 5 years, the one constant that I know I can count on. You call me your angel every day, but truthfully you have been mine. Happy Valentine’s Day, I love you!

Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight
They didn’t even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But, I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
It’s the risk that I’m taking
I ain’t never gonna shut you out!

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I'm surrounded by your embrace.

Posted in love, RL stuff

Kiss Away The Pain

So it was one of those days where I couldn’t STOP being a nervous wreck. See, my dad hasn’t been doing so great the past month or so. He’s been moody, anxious, doesn’t want to eat [well, according to my mom. He always eats if I’m around.], and has been not wanting to move much because he says his knee hurts. He DOES have very bad arthritis in his knee but I guess he’s been in a lot of pain lately. He’s not the kind of man who cries and runs to the doctor every time he has a headache, so when my mom asked if she could take him to the doctor to have his leg looked at, and he agreed, we knew things had finally become too much for him to handle.

I’m extremely close with my parents. If they’re unhappy, I feel it. It gives me a lot of anxiety. But neither one of them thought I needed to come to his doctor’s appointment today, so I stayed home in this constant state of anxious prayer. I prayed that the doctor was good to him, that my dad wouldn’t be scared, that there was something that could be done for the pain. I prayed and I waited for the phone to ring. I didn’t even eat and barely drank water. I just waited. I’m normally the caregiver, the one who drives them to every appointment, the one who fills out all the paperwork, the one who listens to the doctors just so there’s an extra set of ears in the room. But this time they didn’t need me, and so I stayed home, prayed, and waited.

Finally I couldn’t stand it any longer and called my mom. Everything went fine. The doctor was good to my dad. Gave him options. They decided on a steroid shot to the knee and some medication that didn’t have many side effects. My dad took the shot like a champ and I guess the relief was pretty instant because he was hungry afterwards and was even laughing with my mom, something he hasn’t done in forever. Pain makes you a different person.

But so does anxiety. I don’t know what it’s like to not be anxious 98% of the time. It’s just this constant thing in my life, my “normal.” Luckily for me, I have SL to escape into sometimes. And I have someone there to kiss away the pain.

Kiss Away The Pain

Posted in 365 blog project, Abby, Aldwyn, family, love, The Oleanders, vacation

Day 354 – Living Our Dream

And so ends our lovely vacation to the Bahamas. Do you think if I just stand out there with this sign, they’ll let me stay?

Day 354 - Living Our Dream

Probably not, huh?

So, this was my first big “immersive” family RP this week. Although we do little things here and there, most of the time Abby and I are just hanging out at home in a room or on a platform and chatting about random stuff, and when Aldwyn logs in he stands with us. Or just with me because he logs in after Abby has to go to bed. I really have to thank my Lolita and Takeo for getting us more immersed into it this week because well…they’re just really really good at it! Plus, my sister is incredible at planning things and getting everyone involved. Way, way better than me, so I definitely learned from her this week.

Last night as I was getting ready to sleep, I was thinking about everything that I’ve done that has led me to this point in my SLife. As you guys have learned by now, this is not my first avatar, although it is the one that I’ve been on for wayyyy longer than I was on my first. I’ve done the club scene, and the fetish thing, and I’ve been a runway model, and I’ve been a super snarky blogger. I’ve just done all these random things that I’ve usually enjoyed, but most of it never truly fit me.

At our dance last night, Takeo played the song “Everything Is Awesome” and one of the lyrics is “Everything is awesome when we’re living our dream!” I made the offhand comment, “I didn’t even know this WAS my dream!” But thinking more about it, maybe this has been my dream all along. Maybe this is exactly what I was searching for in SL from the beginning. I can’t remember ever being so happy in SL before. I’ve been happy, of course, but not like this. Not at all like this.

But, I guess it’s time to get back to Bluebonnet. Vacations have to end some time, right? I want to make some springy Easter type nail polishes, and I know Abby is excited to get back to building to release some things in her store. And Aldwyn seriously needs to change his Bob Marley shorts. *laughs* Huge thank you and much much love to our Oleander family for putting together the vacation plans and just for being them. They are truly the best family anyone could ask for on this crazy grid!

Posted in 365 blog project, Abby, Aldwyn, family, love, The Oleanders

Day 347 – Necessary

Do you ever let something annoy you long past the time you should devote any kind of attention to it? Something very minor happened yesterday to me and I’ve been chewing on it like it’s an old nasty piece of gum that I just can’t spit out. I haaate when I get into these little snits, but luckily it doesn’t happen too often.

But it did remind me to be more appreciative of what’s necessary in my SLife.

Like…my family! Tonight we went over to the Oleanders’ house for Taco Tuesday! Abby tried to tuck some tacos away to bring home since I never cook. *laughs* My sister is way better at feeding her family than I am! We even had sundaes for dessert. Riley must have put a whole cup of sprinkles all over her ice cream. Afterwards, we headed out to the lawn so the kids could play and we could chat.

Watching our kids

Takeo read a bedtime story to everyone about some mangoes, a monkey who was kind of a jerk, baby eating, and a crocodile who was not really down with mangoes. I’m sure their normal bedtime story reading usually goes better, but well, the Zanzibar side of the family is kind of…loud. We’re sorry. [Not sorry.]

Ooh, I haven’t mentioned it, but we’re taking a family vacation to the Bahamas!! We have our plane tickets and passports already, but we have to shop and pack this week! Of course, Aldwyn and Takeo, being men, are basically taking just a ziploc bag of essentials. We girls are the ones who might need a separate plane to take all our gear! Does anyone know where to buy surfboards and waterskis that will work with kids, too? I’m just so excited for this trip! This will be our first big thing we get to do as a family and that makes it totally special to me.

But since we’ll be leaving on Friday and coming back next Thursday, Lolita and Takeo wanted to get things for scouts set up in advance for this week and next week. That required a trip to get some things. While we were at the place, this girl showed up and just stood there. And stood there. Annnnd stood there. In her texture lingerie type thing and…TEXTURE BOOTS. She is over 7 years old but looked like she hadn’t changed her clothes since her initial rez date.

You're from 2007???

And she plays Bloodlines. So there’s that.

After saying goodnight to Lolita and Takeo, we settled into our skybox to chat until bedtime. This is also necessary in my SLife, time with Aldwyn so he can listen to me talk about whatever it is that is bothering me [or not bothering me. Really, I just tell him everything.] and I can relax.

Day 347 - Necessary

But as you can see, I’m exhausted. Goodnight!