And yet another one.

So today was my birthday. I wasn’t really looking forward to it. I know. Me, the girl who loves birthdays to the point of needing to celebrate twice in a month. But when you lose someone close to you, you always think random, little thoughts. “She would have been this old this year. I just turned this age and when she was this age…” Etc, etc.

I turned older than my sister this year. I mean, technically, I reached that milestone last November. But our numbers were the same and I could just NOT think about it. Now I’m older than she ever will be. In some ways, it feels like I reached a goal. I don’t know why, but it does. In other ways, it just makes me sad. She’d probably laugh. Finally the baby sister is old. That gives me a minor amount of comfort. But the whole thing has felt very weird to me and I’ve been extremely off kilter the past week or so. Sad. Angry. I’ve cried a lot. I’ve snapped at people who have done nothing to me. In a big way, it’s a relief that the day is almost over because I can move on from it.

My online friends, though… God, what would I do without them? What would I do without these people that call me family? They have been amazing. I’ve been surprised with all kinds of things, AND they are throwing me a party on Saturday night!! I’m so lucky and blessed to have them.

So I was going to show you guys pictures of the decorations in my house that the family put up. And I was going to show you pictures of our Bumblebee meeting tonight. But I actually got inspired! This is a picture I’ve been wanting to do FOREVER. Almost 3 years, which is like forever in SL! *laughs* But I couldn’t find all the pieces and of course my skills aren’t awesome. But I’m really happy that I was able to finally do it because I love this song and I find myself humming it a lot when I’m in SL.

Smiling out loud
Sailing through clouds
Life is so new
And all I know is that I’m drifting towards you

So don’t get in the way
I want this feeling to stay
Just let me keep falling, falling

So don’t catch me now
I just wanna keep on falling somehow
So don’t stop me now
I just wanna keep this going somehow
Keep on falling

Don't Catch Me Now

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Day 273 – Fotografia

I’ve been trying to learn more with Photoshop lately. Berry had a really awesome tutorial in her blog using the dodge & burn tools, and so I sat around today playing with those tools. Of course, then I was unhappy with everything and ended up putting an “antique photo” filter over the whole deal. But it’s not terrible.

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Ugh. I’m suddenly really sleepy. So much for writing in my other blog tonight. But here’s a song I really like. It’s in Spanish, and I don’t feel like translating, but it’s pretty. πŸ™‚

Day 268 – Line of beauty…and a green thing

I was invited tonight to go hear some live music. You all know that I’m not really into live music in SL [although I adore going to see live bands locally], but it was different than what I’m normally used to, so I had a lot of fun. And I got to dance with some of the prettiest girls in SL! πŸ™‚

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I hit the gym earlier today for the first time in almost 2 months, so I’m sore sore sore. I think it’s bedtime.

Day 186 – Sometimes live music makes me cranky

I have to admit, I’ve never been a HUGE fan of live music in SL. Oh, I have a few artists that I enjoy, but I can count them on one hand. It’s not usually the music that gets me. It’s the people who attend the shows. So really, it’s rare that I venture out to concerts and I’ve been like that for a while. Now that I’m with someone who does enjoy live music in SL, we’ve gone to a few concerts in the past few days. [Wait till all the fashion shows start up again. Payback shall be sweet.] Tonight we hit up a country place where a guy was actually a pretty terrific singer. His followers, however…

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Every person back there was muted. I could not enjoy the music AT ALL until I muted the entire crowd because there were SO. MANY. DAMN. GESTURES. Is it simply impossible to enjoy a show without blasting a 20 line gesture 5 times in a row? Am I missing something in that I want to just dance and listen to the music without hearing “HOOOOO!” and “ROAARRRRR” and “I LOVE THIS TUNNNNEEEE” 137 times in less than 10 minutes?

Of course, once I had them all muted, I started looking around.

Hola, skankola.

Thong th-th-th-thong

I don’t care how much I love someone, I would NEVER agree to wear a matching tragedy.

Uh. No.

These folks look like they’re lost.

They're in the wrong place, I think.

The music itself? Excellent. He was a pretty great singer, awesome voice. But the people. Oh, the people.

We attempted another show for someone else later, but I kept hearing a “ding! ding! ding!” in my ears. I thought I was going nuts [shut up], but nope.

Grrrrr

He was NOT part of the band.

We decided going home was our best course of action.

I might just be cranky because I’m tired, but goodness. What a night.

Day 185 – Mama, don’t let your babies grow up to be cowboys

I’m writing this blogpost while on location. We’re out listening to Colt Arun, a live singer in SL who does country music. I’m a Texas girl, and I used to hit the country bars a LOT in my 20s, and he sounds a lot like the house band singers I used to listen to. Not bad at all.

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Of course, Eva almost got in a fight with some girl who had toilet paper stuck to her behind. But it’s just not a complete country evening until someone gets smacked.

Day 147 – Inspired

I’ve been pretty blessed to get to know so many wonderful artists [that’s what I think of most of my creator friends are] in Second Life. What always amazes me is where they find their inspiration from. One finds it from nature, another from films, another from music, so on and so forth.

Most of my inspiration for SL photos comes from others, either because of a mood they have put me in, or in items they have created. When my friend Gauge gave me this mirror, an image popped into my head. I knew the outfit and the hair and skybox I wanted to use. And as I was beginning to prepare for the photo, I had my music on shuffle and “I Am Ready For Love” by India.Arie came on. [Yes, I totally had to get the song after hearing it on American Idol. Don’t hate.] After that…the photo came easily.

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If you give me half a chance
I’ll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respects the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you’ll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

And no no, I’m not emo or heartbroken or in love or anything of the sort. πŸ™‚ Well, I am a little sad. I had to clean off a parcel today and….well, you know. But mostly this photo is just one that kind of formed in my head.

Is the photo too big? lol See, I’ve been having issues with this lately. My blog isn’t on any feeds, so I don’t feel like I need to conform to prescribed widths like I do over in the style blog. But I don’t want it to be all crazy either.

I really hate that I don’t start fully waking up until this time. [It’s just about 7 in my neck of the woods]. I seriously think I’m living in my own time zone. But, hey, that’s ok. That is OH-KAY.

Hm. I think I’ll go find someone to bother now.

Day 137 – Only Hope

Not too much to talk about today. Well, that’s not true. There’s probably tons I could say! But I’m choosing to keep my thoughts and opinions to myself for the moment. Not for any other reason than the fact that I can. πŸ™‚ Oh, and because some people are whiny and if I said what I thought, they’d get more whiny, and Dios mio, who wants to see that?

Sometimes songs get in my head while I’m doing photos [No, not The Jeffersons theme song this time!!!] and today I was doing this picture and the song “Only Hope” by Switchfoot popped into my head. I haven’t heard it in ages, but it’s always been one of my favorites. πŸ™‚

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Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

I suppose it’s time to tuck my pretty black & white skybox away and go to bed. Saturdays are my busy days during the daytime, and I need my sleep.