Posted in adoption, family, talking, well okay then

That Didn’t Go As Expected

I always threaten the girls [and sometimes the rest of the family] that I’m going to put them in a box and leave them on the front steps of Heritage. Or that I’m going to go to Heritage and get a “stand in” kid to replace them in pictures. I’m never serious about it, which they know. It’s just a silly joke. [So don’t be looking for them on panels any time soon!!]

Last night I got this idea in my head to blog about my little threat, and then talk about things that turn prospective parents off on your panel notecard. But as it’s been a while since I’ve read any kids cards, I thought I should go to Heritage and check some out.

What I didn’t expect was to be immediately drawn to a little girl’s panel.

We’re really not looking to expand our family at this time. If we met someone who clicked with us and the rest of our family, who hung out with us sometimes, plurked with us, etc… well, I don’t know. We wouldn’t exactly say no to that. But actively looking at the adoption agency? Nope. Not right now. So for me to be drawn to this panel…I just don’t know.

Part of me thinks I’m drawn to it because she looks like me. Blonde hair, blue eyes, smiling in her photo. Her notecard was well written. She’s at the upper age that I would consider adopting. She seems cute and fun, much like our own girls.

But then the other part of me thinks that maybe I just want to share what we have. I mean, not to brag too much, but my family is really more than amazing. We’re respectful and loving to each other, we have a ton of good, family friendly fun, and we’re always happy when friends join us when we’re having a party or watching a movie or something. I feel like I want to share it with another kid and let them in on our family wonderfulness.

Or I’m just emotional this week for no dang reason and I don’t even know what I’m talking about. That’s always a possibility, too.

I don’t know. I’m sure someone will snap this little girl up soon because she is adorable. And I don’t really feel like looking for a new house right now, which we would have to do if we adopted again because we only have 3 bedrooms and I like each kid to have their own space. It was just weird and unexpected for me to be just so pulled towards a panel.

Oh, but eventually I will do the post on what might turn prospective parents off while reading your panel notecard, and maybe get the girls to help me write about what would make a kid reading a parent notecard not want to get to know them. But not tonight.

That Didn't Go As Expected

Posted in birthday, changes, talking

Who Knows What Could Happen?

I have to admit, I’ve been struggling getting back into the SL swing of things since my vacation. Not that I had this amazing, fantastic time on vacation or anything. *laughs* In fact, for the first couple of days, the weather had me so miserable, I was about to NOPE on outta there and come home. What can I say? I am used to being in constant air conditioning. There were pockets of good, of course. It wasn’t a completely horrible experience and a lot of good came from it on a personal level, but I was extremely glad to get home. Only now that I’m here… I don’t know. I think because I came home to immediately start dealing with the main stress in my SLife, it has thrown me all off.

But, the nice thing about stresses in SL is that they can be fixed. Or changed. Or thrown away. After discussing it with the family, by next month, the main thing that has made me very unhappy in the past few months will be eliminated and I can breathe easier. Because I haven’t in months, and even now I’m still a little frantic about something. And I’m sorry I’m being vague, but until it’s completely in motion, I don’t want to get too in depth about it all. Soon, though, I promise. 🙂

Who Knows What Could Happen?

My birthday is next week. Next Friday, actually. I should be more “OH NO, GETTING OLDER” about it, but I’m not. The only thing that bugs me is that I’m slowly slowly getting gray hair. I’ve found 2 of them in the past 2 months! Well, I say gray, but they aren’t really. They’ve been more of a pale gold. So I dunno. Maybe I’m going blonde in my old age. Or as my friend Beuanna said, I’m turning into my avatar. Hey, if I get the body to go along with that, I’m all in! *laughs* But other than the hair thing, I don’t mind the number. Probably because I still feel like I’m 25. Or 17. Or sometimes 12.

Although tonight, all I feel is exhausted, so I guess it’s bedtime.

Posted in RL stuff, talking, thinking, vacation

The Place I Love

Ooh I’ve been a bad blogger in this blog this month. Sorry about that! I’ve actually started a ton of posts but by the time I get around to finishing them, I figure “Who cares about this?” Although why I care what other people think about this blog, I don’t know. It’s just where I write randomness. 🙂 But I’ll have more posts next month because the family is going on vacation again! Woo!

This past weekend was a super busy one for me. Actually, since Wednesday, I’ve been in SL maybe 3 hours altogether. I got SUPER sick Wednesday night while doing a photo. I have no idea what happened. I just suddenly had a fever and uncontrollable chills. I hate being sick, so of course I was a super grump for days even though really it was just that one night. Then Saturday I was out all day and I fully intended on logging into SL that evening, but MORE RL stuff came up and we spent the night cleaning because we were going to have people over yesterday. I figured that it would be over early enough that I could get back in world but it was not.

For most people, not logging in for a few days is probably not even a big deal at all. But SL is where I go to relax and it helps with my anxiety, so it was nice to wake up this morning and head in for a few minutes.

The Place I Love

My RL is not as chaotic as it used to be. I’m VERY blessed that it is not because I know it can change in an instant. Unfortunately, my brain doesn’t calm down in the calm times. I’m forever waiting for something bad to happen. I know that it’s not the right way to be, but well…tell that to my brain. *laughs* Being able to be in SL, even if I just have 5-10 minutes alone to look at the sim, it makes such a world of difference to me. It’s actually better than any medication I’ve been on, which is kinda cool.

Now that all the sickness and craziness of the past few days is over, I can go back to what is normal for me, and I like that quite a bit. I miss my SL family and I’m THRILLED that next Monday we’ll be heading for our vacation!

But it’s time for me to get up and go do some stuff. Groceries gotta be bought, clothes gotta be washed. 🙂 I feel better now that I’ve blogged, too. Writing in a blog is really the best kind of online therapy for me! I’ll try not to go so long in between posts again. ❤